And the Stress Returns

I came back to my dorm tonight after my week off for mid-winter break (spring break) and I am feeling overwhelmed. Which is crazy because nothing is happening for me to feel this way. I just start thinking of every possible thing I have to do and it seems like a lot when really it is not.
So to help myself I will make list of things to do.

-Fafsa on Monday
-Fill Taxes by Monday
-Laundry on Monday
-Alcohol norm Follow Up on Tuesday
-Fix Research Paper by Wednesday
-Study for SW Midterm by Thursday
-Writing Center for Research Paper by Thursday
-PSY quiz on Friday
-Edit Research Paper after Wednesday by Friday
-Read Chapter 8 for PSY by Sunday
----Next Week----
-Audience Analysis by Tuesday
-PSY Quiz by Wednesday

That is it for now I have to do my FAFSA

Things That Make Me Happy

Because Ms. Kelly Brewer told me too haha

10 Things That Make Me Happy Are... (in no real order by the way)

1. Sheldan - Honestly I don't know what I would do without him. He makes me smile every single day!! He has been there for me and continues to be there for me. I love him so much and everyday I don't see him, I go crazy missing him. I wish I could explain how much he means to me.

2. Kelly Brewer - Also known in my head by KB or Kel, though I never call her this in person, text or to others. (hence my pervious post just about her) We have had our fights, we don't talk as much but lately we talk here and there and I really enjoy it. We have had some amazing times together and I have done dumb shit with her but the experiences are priceless. I miss going to the cottage, hanging with her everyday. I love that girl. lol

3.Getting mail - as silly as that may seem. It makes me very happy.

4. Having money to spend on others - I love giving to others

5. PJ shorts/softball shorts - they are so comfy to wear

6. Hugs - while I never really was one to give a bunch of hugs, I absolutly love them! They make me feel special haha

7. Strawberries - I love the fruit to start with but they never serve strawberries at school in there fruit bowls and when they do its like heaven

8. Playing Broad/Card Games - they make me so happy to play and challenge others or just have a great time with others.

9. Going on walks with Sheldan - we use to all the time in the beginning of our relationship but then we moved =[

10. Memories - Just memories of all the good times in my life. Though it can be sad, more of it is making me happy remembering.

I am sure there are many more as well.

Nights of List

This describes my nights. (except I don't make list of people I hate) I can lay alone at night and make lists of things. Then the next night I lay along I will do that same thing. The lists almost always having the same stuff, and adding more. How sad is it that, that is the way I fall asleep most nights. Oh well I guess...

Good News

I got a call on Sunday and I got a job! YAY!!
This means that I will have a job come April. I will being staying down here for the summer. Which is nice because I won't have to be 3 hours from my Sheldan all summer long. =D I hope Sheldan just doesn't get sick of me. I am getting that paranoid things where I think he hates me being around so much since I am on Mid-Winter Break (Spring Break). I love being able to be around him so much! Going back to school in a week will suck so much.
The only bad thing lately is I miss my family so much at times. You know sometimes I just wish things could be back to normal. I haven't talked to anyone in my family in probably a month or so. If my mom would make an effort to actually get back in my life or something I would probably agree right to it. But I am not going to crawl back. I feel what she did was not fair and I don't want her thinking that I have came around and that what she did was the right thing in all. I guess I have my standards on things.
I have been thinking about my family so much lately though. One day I took a really good cry just remembering all the good times, or the times that weren't so bad. I don't know what to do. SO I guess I will continue on in my life and try to fight the thought of missing them.
I have my Sheldan and while its probably not a good thing that I only have him. I love him so much, I don't care. He brings me so much joy and love!!

Spring Time?

Well the last couple days have been warm and/or sunny. I hope it decides to stay I am ready for the warm weather.
Today just seems like a good day. =D I can't wait to spend this next week with Sheldan because come tomorrow 12:30pm I am on SPRING BREAK! woot
My head is fully of psychology, since I am studying for my exam. I am thinking it will go well. I feel I know quite a bit. Bring it on!!
Everyone remember to smile, life is beautiful!

Ms. Kelly Brewer

My Rock the second half of my sophomore year and all through Junior year. Seriously we got to be so close and we were pretty much ALWAYS with each other. I miss this girl so much, it hurts. We had a falling out Senior year and I can't even tell you why. Now we are cool but she lives like 200 miles from each other so its not like we can have our crazy fun times like we use it. We have so many inside jokes and memories that we could write a damn book. Kelly Brewer every thing you have went through and you still stay strong. I admire you for that. In the non-creepy way that would offend your mother I love you Kelly Brewer.

Songs on the Mind

1. Holes in the Floor of Heaven - Collin Raye

2. The Gift - Jim Brickman

3. If I Get There Before You Do - Collin Raye

4.Get Higher - Paper Tongues

I suggest you to listen to them

Valentine's Day

Well tomorrow is Valentines Day and I actually already celebrated it. My gift is actually lame compared to last year and to what I got this year. I am making Sheldan a fleece tie blanket; it is camo and brown. I wanted to give it to him this weekend with his homemade pop up card but the fabric didn't come in time =[ So I gave him his card so he wasn't empty handed. But on Saturday he totally surprised me! When I got a package in the mail. It was a boutique of lilies and irises in a square vase. Plus it came with chocolates, bubble bath stuff and a $50 redeem gift card that we get to use!! I couldn't believe it and it is so amazing. I hope he likes his gift when he gets it...probably this coming Friday.

I know people say they hate valentines day but honestly I really do like it. It is a day that I have a reason to spoil my Sheldan even if it is just making him a blanket. I hope everyone has a good Valentines Day.

Charlie St. Cloud

Good Movie: I will admitt it made me cry. It is my favorite movie that Zac Effron has been in and he did a good job in it. Though its his little brother that can really get to you. This all may be my opinion though. But I suggest watching it, it was pretty good.

Out From Darkness

This Flower is ready to shine
Please help this Flower shine
The darkness is not home
Can you show it a home
It just wants the spring
The beauty, strength and warmth
It wants protection and guidance
Its time to unthaw and let these colors shine
The Flower is here to stay
And it needs you
Forever and Always

School...

School is just driving me crazy right now. I feel the weekends haven't been enough lately. Good thing mid-winter break (my spring break) is in a week and a half! I think I will spend it with my Sheldan! =D Good quality time with some studying and homework that I will have.
One a good note, I have a job interview this Saturday for a job done here. Which means I will stay down here for the summer and not go back to Sparta. I am waiting to know if I actually get the job to tell anyone in Sparta if I will be coming back or not. Sheldan already asked his dad and Chris and they said that I can stay the summer there. =D
The only bad part is that I will have to work the weekends which are my time I usually relax. But I will make do. Also the fact that I don't have my license or a car so I will rely on Sheldan to take me to my job. I hope it works out!! This summer I NEED to work on getting my license I am just nervous to drive with anyone down here and on the roads down here.
Stressing is not cool, I just need to remind myself that things are ok and everything will work out.

Sun...

Today the sun shining is amazing. It may only be 25 degrees out and the wind can be chilly but when the wind die downs and the sun shines on you it feels like spring is coming. It makes me want to stay outside for hours. It is so beautiful out today! It puts me in a great mood.

Love Yourself

Everyday something is going to happen, whether it is good, bad, or just the same. It is the days that something bad happens that we all need a reminder to love ourselves. If you do not like what is happening around you, then change it. You have to remember that everything is not going to be handed to you and that makes you strong. You will have your ups and your downs, but without those downs you would never have any ups. Cherish the times you have had, cherish the moments your having and cherish the ones to come.