URGGGHHHHH

I hate when things just get under skin and I can't let it go.
This morning my roommate posted on Facebook "Greatttttt! I am Sick again....I hate fans and windows!" Well last night I fell asleep with the fan on and I had the window open. So she claims that I got her sick.
But if we do a little recap we will see she is full of crap!
1. I ALWAYS sleep with the window open...even through winter. That is why my bed is next to it.
2. The fan wasn't blowing on her, only me!!
3. She hasn't been going to bed until 2-3am. (not getting enough sleep)
4. Weather has changed...messing up people's adjustment making them sick
5. The other day she complained of a sore throat...obviously didn't happen from that fan and window.
6. She is ALWAYS talking on the phone, if your throat hurts, knock that shit off and don't eat potato chips eat the pudding or applesauce.
Huh?? Wonder what all of this means?!?

My roommate needs to get her facts straight!!

The Weekend Wrap Up

Friday = Worked...wasn't too bad, kind of slow. I can't wait for it to pick up more.

Saturday = Sheldan working 10 hours, me staying at his place; did some homework, watched movies. Sheldan comes home showers and we spend some time together, it was awesome!

Sunday = BEAUTIFUL weather!!! Sheldan and I went out to a few stores didn't get anything. Then we went to lunch. Olive Garden, was a amazing. Then we go back home and put some shorts on and sit outside on his porch for the rest of the night, talking with his parents, each other and enjoying the weather. What a perfect time.

I can't wait for Summer, such a good thing that I only have this full week, a class on next Monday. Then nothing until exams the next Monday and Tuesday!

Another Day

It is crazy how one day things can be great and the next you seriously think you are going crazy. I am always glad I have support when that happens!

Yesterday was a great day: Sheldan had his first day of work, even though, it was just watching movies on safety. While he was at work I got to go to Matt and Elizabeth's Wedding, which was so nice. Even though it was just at the court house it was amazing. after that we went to a restaurant and celebrated. Sheldan joined us there. While at the restaurant I felt so special that I could help with little Makayla and Rebeka. After that just got to ride in the car with my honey and we talked. Which I love to do!! =D
I can't wait to see him on Friday before we both have to work. But before that can happen I have major school work to do this week.

Hopefully Spring weather comes and stays!

Continue...

Well Sheldan found out he got the job and his hours for this week already! He works Tuesday - Saturday minus Thursday. Which is great, his hours vary everyday. We work the same time on Friday so I am hoping he will just drop me off early and I will probably have to ask for someone to pick me up though.
I will admit one thing that bugs me is he works more hours than me in a week than I do in two weeks. I am happy for him, but I feel like such a loser. I thought it would be great that I got a job and stuff, but no one seems to think an ice cream shop is any good because I already did that for 2 years back in Sparta. Ok not everyone but a handful of people (my family). Now sheldan has a job and he gets like double my hours. ehh I just wanted to do something right and now I just get in the way. I feel like a loser for not getting more hours, not having a better job, and not having my license. I am SO mad at myself and I don't know what to do. Even if I get my license there is no way I can pay for a car and I don't feel confident to drive sheldan's car to even practice and now that he works so much I will have no time to practice.
EHHHHHHHH!! I am so fustrated and mad at myself!!
It is things like this that makes me wonder how I deserve anything and this just makes me mad.

So much yet so little

A lot has happen since my last post, thankfully all to the positive.
I love my Sheldan so much.

Anyways this past weekend I started my new job and I like it so far. I have to get use to there being camera around the whole shop and to the owners always being there. But the owners and the workers are really nice, I do miss Tasty though. I think I am learning quick which is great. Hopefully that will get me off training wage and allow me to get more hours. =D

Also last Wednesday Sheldan and I went out for lunch and he ended up getting a job interview at the Pizza Hut. I am so proud of him!! He finds out for sure today if he got the job and hours and such. I can't wait to find out myself.

continue this later...class time.

Lost

Sometimes I just don't know what I am doing.

I hate when you feel so lost and the one person you always go to, isn't there. It breaks your heart and makes you question everything. I love him so much! but I don't know what I do to make him so mad at times. I just want to talk to him and he just doesn't want to talk to me. He is all I have and I don't know what to do. I am sure in a few days it will all be fine.
But the pain, is just so much!!

I wish I could explain better how much you mean to me! You are my world, my everything, I just want to make you happy. I have never been so happy than I am with you. I can get mad and frustrated at times, but give me like ten to twenty minutes alone to cool off and all I want is you. Your the one I go to when I am down, confused, and lost. But when these things happen and its between us I don't have you there anymore and I still want to go to you. I wish you could see this and read my heart and see how many times your name is written ALL over it.

I want to talk to you and show you.

The Catch Up

Last Wednesday Sheldan and I hit the road for Sparta. I was so excited to go and see people. While I was in Sparta I stayed with my mom, which was really nice. Everyone kept asking how is that, staying with your mom. But in reality I was the one that choose to do it and I am glad I did. I really miss my mom and family. I never got to see my sister though since she had school and work. Leaving Sparta sucked so bad though. As Sheldan and I pulled away from my moms house I was holding back the tears. Even as I write this now I am crying. I just keeping telling myself the reason I can't go live there is because I am going to school right now. But I know when summer hits I will miss it so much!
I tried talking to Sheldan last night because I cam straight to my dorm and didn't go to his dads house for dinner. So I was texting him and at one point I finally just wrote I want to go home. But really what can he say to that? He replied sorry. So I changed the subject. Later in the conversation I said it again but he stated I don't know how to help you. And honestly I don't know how he could have. I just felt like I needed to be held and he wasn't there so what really could have been done? Oh well I will get over it and focus on school work.

Then last night in one of my dreams I was actually in someones wedding and we were all getting ready but my dad was like in a chair at this place and I kept going over to him and hugging him and kissing him and talking to him. At one point someone said he isn't real Katie, he died. I said, "I don't care at least he is here now." In my dream but Dad didn't say anything to that. But this is the first dream that I can clearly remember that he had talked to me in the dream. He said many things but one thing I remember is he told me he was just glad to see me happy, because he hadn't seen me happy after he had died a lot. I still feel like I can kinda feel the kisses and hugs he gave me in the dream.

It was a good dream to say the least. =] He lives in my heart, memories and dreams.