Well Sheldan found out he got the job and his hours for this week already! He works Tuesday - Saturday minus Thursday. Which is great, his hours vary everyday. We work the same time on Friday so I am hoping he will just drop me off early and I will probably have to ask for someone to pick me up though.
I will admit one thing that bugs me is he works more hours than me in a week than I do in two weeks. I am happy for him, but I feel like such a loser. I thought it would be great that I got a job and stuff, but no one seems to think an ice cream shop is any good because I already did that for 2 years back in Sparta. Ok not everyone but a handful of people (my family). Now sheldan has a job and he gets like double my hours. ehh I just wanted to do something right and now I just get in the way. I feel like a loser for not getting more hours, not having a better job, and not having my license. I am SO mad at myself and I don't know what to do. Even if I get my license there is no way I can pay for a car and I don't feel confident to drive sheldan's car to even practice and now that he works so much I will have no time to practice.
EHHHHHHHH!! I am so fustrated and mad at myself!!
It is things like this that makes me wonder how I deserve anything and this just makes me mad.
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